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Back!

2012-02-11T17:04:00.002+08:00

Just got back to Singapore after a good 4 days rest in Bangkok. Although I have been to Bangkok many times over the years, this time is quite enjoyable as I just get to NUA. Hahaha. Had massage and spa almost everyday. I even tried Thai food from the streets this time round. Its really yummy. Previously I didn't dare to try as I was afraid of the hygiene standard but surprisingly it turns out to be okay.

I am back feeling much more light hearted and looking forward to life, esp April to May!! I will be going to Europe. Zurich, Milan, Florence, Venice, Rome! Should be spending about 2 weeks there. For now, I need to get back momentum for my life and get things in order. Ciao

Night cycling and moving forward

2012-02-05T13:59:00.002+08:00

Had a very late night cycling with my jc buddies yesterday. We explore the from west coast park till pandan reservoir and we had supper at Mac subsequently. Boy it was really good to meet up and it feel like old times.

During the cycling, my phone was left in Singwei bag. Thoughts of whether If i would miss any emergency calls keep coming to my mind. Thoughts of what if she suddenly feel unwell, experience chest pain..etc just keep flooding my mind. Hey I have to stop this. Things are no longer as before. I need to move on. I need to lead my own life now and so does she. All that I can do now is keep her in Prayers and wish all will be well as a friend. Time to reorganise my priorities and start living and breathing. Tk care!

In HIM I lean and I will get better.

2012-01-27T16:36:00.001+08:00

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand...
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone Know His power In quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood I will be still and know You are God

Back again

2012-01-25T21:02:00.002+08:00

Oh dear this blog seems to become my channel to vent my frustrations and unhappiness. Haha. Its been almost 3 years since i updated. Right now, i am just feeling so disappointed and broken. Got to live up to my blog address...really must move on liao. Time to find myself back!

Bluey Mon

2009-03-30T18:05:00.002+08:00

Its a rainy bluey Mon la. Haha...decided that I shall take the next 10 mins I have to blog. Gotta go work and get busy soon. Rainy weather + melanchonic music on a mon is the perfect combination for getting the blues eh?

Life is moving on a rather fast pace recently, so fast that I didn't have the time to sit down to ask my inner soul if I'm happy with the way things are? Not that things are bad at the moment, its just this moment that the thought about the past, and the what could have been question starts popping up in my mind. So so so random right? Its such a redundant question...what could have been? Answer is nothing. Nothing that I can do about the past, however much I wish I could. So sinlong, just stop being an idiot?

Life doesn't only revolve around the important person in your life but yet it isn't complete without their existence. Haha...how ironical. I'm like a latched door, only peeping through the door hole to look around, not wanting or allowing people to just enter simply. Perhaps, one day the door will open..perhaps. Ciaoz

Heaven Knows?

2009-03-28T10:41:00.002+08:00

Haha...taken the title of this entry from the song i'm listening to now. For the 1st time, I'm taking note of the lyrics for this song. In the past, I would just enjoy the tune of the song and prob the only part I can register is the chorus. Haha.

Anw, think I haven been blogging as frequent as the 1st 2 months. Well, guess I have been too occupied with work and didn really the mood to blog ba. The most recent event I had was with my sec sch frens. 4 of us drank and talk cock on thurs nite like nobody business...just like the good old days. Haha.

Well, over the last few months, my perspective about things have changed slightly. In the past, I always looked forward to settling down with my other half. Right now, I will probably like to focus on career and just have fun, enjoy life ba. As for what is in for my future, only heaven knows? Lol.

Just blog..

2009-03-05T01:32:00.002+08:00

haha...realised that I haven been blogging for some time. Been very caught up with work recently and even right now am waiting for a phone conference to settle some work stuff for tml event. Hmm..guess only thing to look forward to is my Fri Theme dinner and prob sun chill out session to reward myself for this week hardwork? Haha.

Somehow the silence tonite seems unbearable...nope..I'm not feeling emo..haha. The awkward silence is just flooding me with memories of my last few years..from the day I entered Uni. Time flies and I'm gonna turn 26 this yr. Well, its not that I feel old. Just think that time is passing faster than I previously thought. I am in a pretty shag mode now...think my this entry gonna be very random. Haha.

k la...shall not continue le...just too tired to think and blog. Let my heart enjoy the quiet silence and peace. Nites

19 Feb '09, A night to remember

2009-02-20T07:51:00.003+08:00

I'm almost done with my hangover and lack of sleep. Slept for barely 3 hours before I got woken up by our dear fren la. It was a night of excessive drinking among the 5 of us and my 1st time at timbre. Haha. Had 2 and a half glasses of wine + beer and was enjoying chatting among ourselves and listening to the liveband. By the end of the session, I was damn shag already. Had a long day at work, having irregular meals for the day and having to stress over work matters. But the chilling out session made up for it. Haha. It was a night of Emo''ness if I may use that term. Its almost 2 months and I look back, indeed I'm in a better state right now. Come to terms with reality and moving on at an amazing pace, that I was surprised by.

I have filled my life with work and activities with friends, almost like trying to making Kueh lapis..hahaha or rather Tiramisu. Stacking one layer on top of another, trying to cover the bottom layers. I guess life is similar to making tiramisu/kueh lapis. I'm grateful for my happy memories over the last few years and can't ask for more. If there is any last thing I can do for her, it would be the hope that she will be happy, truly happy. Hey hey, I'm not digging out old wounds but its just something heartfelt. Haha. I'm moving on, rem. Its just one of the nights, when you would think about the past. Afterall, if you truly love a person before, you would hope that she would be happy always, no matter where you are, how far apart you are from each other.

Alright, time to prep for work. Hope the day passes soon. I can't wait to hop back into bed! haha.

Tired and Yet Happy?

2009-02-17T02:13:00.002+08:00

Its been sometime since my last entry. I just finish sending out all my emails, my work discussion and some preparation for tml's appt. To be honest, I feel abit burnt out. Have never work this hard and long before but it actually feels good...in the sense that its fulfilling and you know where you are moving towards.

Earlier last week, on a particular morning, I woke up feeling "very ok" and actually look forward to my days and weeks ahead. Don't ask me why I feel that way. Haha. I'm actually starting to enjoy my life as it is. To me, everything happens for a reason and things that happened to me recently might not be a bad thing afterall. There is always something to learn from, I believe.

I can only say that it feels good to be me, not that I wasn't myself for the last few years...but its more about loving myself more these days. Hahaha. These days, I actually go out more and meet more people and start to appreciate the beauty of it. Heh. I guess I have unknowingly move on and I'm even more motivated than before to build my career and get my life. Haha.
I look forward to the many days to come and at last...I live up to the last part of my blog title...moving on :)

Haggard ah long

2009-02-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Haha...Its almost time for bed and I'm really feeling damn shag now. Had a late Ktv session with frens on fri and slpt at 6am...waking up for work at 1030am. Ktv session was fun and managed to catch up with quite a few old frens. Haha. I think I'm really getting old...staying up late makes me look haggard la...my sunken black eyes as quoted by my client at the end of my appt this evening.

On the whole, life is getting better I guess. Learning to lead life in my own unique way and starting to enjoy myself. Life goes on and I will just learn to appreciate the beauty of every stage of life. Shall make this post a short one and go to bed. Definitely in need of my long piggy slp. Nites

Hectic Tues

2009-02-03T17:43:00.002+08:00

Phew, I finally got a chance to come online as well as rest after my long day. Started my day at 6+am. Had a seminar at Expo till lunch and errands to run in the afternoon. Haha. Feeling tired now as I slept for only 3 hours last night. Guess I will need a nap or slp early tonight. Recently, gastric been acting up man....I think its a sign that I should stop drinking? =x

Haha...I'm still thinking of going for my night run tonight though...shall see how. I need a nap now...shag cannot think le. ciao

Run lOnG...Run

2009-02-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Phew I just got back from my run....damn shag man...my 2nd consecutive night of running. My leg muscles feeling e fatigue....knee joints starting to feel the pain. I ran despite all....for I wanted to remind myself that no matter how difficult things seem to be, I will move ahead..forward. I will run on, no matter how tough the road will be.

Today is a hectic day...been rushing since the time I woke up. Haha...something worth mentioning is that I finally bought my furniture for my office room le. Yay. Shall post the photos as below. Must say that during the happy moment I was tempted to sms and share my joy with her....but I realised that I shouldn dream on anymore. Things are no longer as before. Time to wake up, Move on ah long.

Gathering at Yijun's 2009.

2009-02-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

Just came back from my gathering at yijun's place for this year. Wow, must say that its very nice of her and her parents to pamper us with so much nice food here and then. Have been to her house a couple of times and everytime we get to try different types of food. The theme for today is Shanghainese food. We had drunken chicken, beef, nice soup and goose liver...my favourite can! haha. In e midst of all these nice food, I had wine. Oops.

I drank quite abit for today. During dinner, I had 3-4 glasses of wine and after that we joined e other guests invited by yijun's parents. Haha..the uncles really can drink man..keep taunting me to drink and well thats when I had another few glasses of wine + hard liquor...jialat my liver is burning. I thought I would be drunk but surprising I was quite sober throughout and got myself alittle involved in their conversation. I must say a big thank you to Yijun for her invite as I enjoyed myself alot.

Song that reflects

2009-01-31T12:49:00.003+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开你要
我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容
你也接受他不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

Updates for the week!

2009-01-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

Its friday and here I'm blogging. hah. This week been a pretty slack week..party cos of the holiday season ba. Hmm I tried something new! Went fishing with desmond for a good 7 hours on wed and I got quite badly sun burnt. Haha..But well at least I got quite a good catch for my virgin fishing trip. Will post photos below. My thurs and fri nites were well..spent drinking..yea..all e beer. Ooops. I'm supposed to stop drinking.

I guess it has become a habit for me to drink le...which i know its not good. But sometimes after work, I just don't feel like going home...I will probably think about things I'm not supposed to and I feel so empty inside yea. My heart still hurts and I've been trying to be positive and cover up with my smiles and filling myself with lots of activities. I wish I can fast forward time to a year later...2010...a time that I might have already moved on with life and be happy...rather than where I'm now. I hope the day when I can truly smile from e heart will come soon. Meanwhile, I'll just hang in there ba.

Good Sunday Morning

2009-01-25T08:22:00.002+08:00

O Haiyo! haha...its a rare occasion I wake up so early man. Decided that wanted to spend time with family over breakfast...as it has been ages since I've done that. The only few occasions which I did that was the initial few weeks after Dad was discharged from hospital. And yea subsequently, I was too caught up in my own affairs that I neglected them. Kinda feel bad and I have decided that in days to come, I will put more attention to my family for they won't always be around and hence I should not take them for granted. Now seems like a good time to reorganise my priorities in life.

Now my legs are aching alittle from my run with desmond last night. Haha. He is my buddy I knew during my army days and we ran together even after I left the service. Haha..he made me run hard...and pushed me beyond my comfort zone. That feeling is great...it always feel great to make progress. So I hope I can pick up the habit of running regularly just like e good old days. Life is great and doing all these simple things will let me find myself again...who sinlong really is.

Reflection

2009-01-24T13:27:00.002+08:00

Alright, I slept soundly and been eating quite normally for the past 2 days. Haha..thats a pretty good improvement! Anw, had a decent dinner treat from Mich yestr...so thank you :) Next time will be my turn. Haha

Now my objective till end of this month would be to get back to my normal life and add more colors to it. I had countless of sleepless nights, irregular meals, or sometimes even not eating and thats enough. The only way I'm going to get back on track is to live healthy and thats when proper healing can take place.

For me, as I think back, I felt that the most important to me in a r/s is trust. Trusting your partner to be there for you when you are down and out, he or she may not be able to do anything for you but at least the support is there and thats what most important. Its never about what he or she can do...but rather whether how much he or she is willing to do. My take away from this episode is I realised more about what is important to me. Now I just look forward to the day when I can wake up and feel peaceful and good about my life...less off the emotional baggage.

Happy Chinese New Year to All. May the time be well spent with your loved ones.

Moving On

2009-01-23T10:15:00.002+08:00

Yay, its friday le. The approach of a super long wkend. haha. Wud be going back to office soon and got lots of errands to run for today. Haha. At least its going to be a fruitful day. For evening time, I would be meeting Yc and Mich for a short dinner at TB plaza...yesh...yc fav hangout.
haha. I will probably rest early today as well....still haven got enough =p

I slept well last night...probably because I was tired out after two sleepless nights and also I finally let go of my anger le. Really not worth getting angry...now that I look back. To say that I don't feel anything is not true...for I'm only human. Feeling of emptiness, heartache still exists but I'm sure it will get better each day. And well, my problem is probably a small one...compared to many people out there. So just be glad ba. With every passing day, I will definitely move fowards, becoming the man that I want to be. Stronger and better. Cheers to my 1st step.

Appeased and after thoughts

2009-01-22T13:13:00.002+08:00

I have been living in agony for the last 2 days. So much pain and hurt and disappointment. A moment ago, I was still very resentful towards her and everything. But my dear bro wilson reminded me something, if I know that next day either She or I gonna disappear suddenly, would I still choose to feel the same way?

I got my answer. Like I mentioned earlier, its tiring to hate...and I don't intend to. To love is much easier. To forgive and forget will only make me a better person and stronger too. Truth is no matter what happened, I can't just wipe away memories we had for e last 2 yrs. I treasure the love once given and appreciate the beautiful memories. I don't want to come out of this r/s, with hatred.

Whatever has happened has happened. Things done or said...so be it. My closure for this whole thing is I would choose to be at peace with her. I would be happier this way. Though I'm not ready to talk now...but one day we may. I don't bear anymore grudges nor hope for anything. I just want to move on with my life and well this is my choice to see things in this perspective. I learnt that to become stronger and better doesn't mean learning to hate and be vengeful. It comes with learning to let go and moving forward.

As I write, I shed my remaining tears, tears reminding me how much I cherish everything, how I gave w/o expectations, how beautiful things were once, how silly I can be and what you have done for me. I have to give credit for the good things that happened, just like how I vent my anger on things I find intolerable.

Yea...I will pack these treasured memories and store it in a hidden corner of my heart...so that one day I can retrieve it and smile once I healed. Afterall, they are things to be happy about. It all depends on how I want to look at it. I think I can finally fall aslp in peace. Till I blog again.

lOnG finally understands

2009-01-20T19:40:00.003+08:00

I will live up to my blog title...to forget and move on. Yea...right now i'm shattered, and feel so dead. I have thought through alot and reflected so much...I finally understand. Everything was a nightmare and I need to wake up....it hurts, it disappoints but life goes on. Truth is The sun will rise and set. Time will not stop, just to pity me.

I have no regrets for I have done my very best. Though I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, I will be strong and choose to believe that I will find it somehow. I am a true blue commando and always will be.

Frens, don't worry. lOnG will emerge better and stronger for what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger.

Chillout with Army mates

2009-01-17T03:40:00.002+08:00

Its a very busy friday for me. Went to Prisc wedding dinner at Swissotel Stamford and had a hard time finding parking man. Took me a good 45 mins before I parked my car. Dinner was okie...but abit boring cos i didn't know anyone there. haha. Hence, I went off to meet up with my army buddies ard 10+. Haha...these guys were waiting for me...to get me drunk. Had 2 cups and a shot for today. Wah...I wasnt suppose to drink so much leh. Surprisingly I didn't get drunk. Haha. But it was a bad idea to drink...really. It just brought back some memories and yea I felt terrible after that.

Right now, I'm happy with the way things are and I will just do my best to care for myself and her. She still means alot to me. And well, this week is actually a happy week. Went out on a date with her on wednesday and we totally enjoyed ourselves. I just hope I will be able to create more wonderful memories ahead. I will be stronger and better...I must. Failure is not an option.

Thinking Through..

2009-01-10T18:56:00.003+08:00

Its been almost a week since my last entry. Been relatively busy with work and catching up with friends. With more time on hands now, I think its a good time to rethink about what I really want, how I can improve myself and emerge stronger. I need to take care of myself so that I can be there for all my loved ones. And I gotta be firmer on what I want and don't, esp in a r/s. Sometimes we are too preoccupied with daily lives that we fail to reflect back on our actions and keep repeating mistakes and I happen to be in this category.

A few things that I want to work on...would be to become better than before, get healthier physically and emotionally, learn to take more control of my life and break out of negative habits which I had. Its not going to be easy for Change is never comfortable. But I have to, for my own sake and ppl around me.

There is a time for everything, time for me to work, to reflect, to recharge and think about us. For a start, lets try to take on a different perspective of looking at things for changes always start from inside. Though i will not sms you this, but I can still write it here..haha. I miss you.

A brand new Wk!

2009-01-05T22:16:00.003+08:00

Here we go ahead, its another wk in this brand new year. Hmm, alot had happened for 2008. There were beautiful memories as well as sad moments but on the whole it was a very happy 2008. Looking back, I start to appreciate how just spending a simple day with your loved ones can be so meaningful...and I mean every single day you get together. We shouldn't take for granted that he or she will always be there and moving forward, I will definitely learn to appreciate every single moment.

Meanwhile, I'm living a day at a time. Really don't dare to think much and Work is building up. Haha. I will be shifting office to Newton this coming Wed and oh boy...there is gotta be lots of things to pack. How i wish someone can help me. Any volunteers? Haha.

For today, I'm thankful I got back to work. Did my collection as normal and managed to catch up with Prisc for lunch, followed by my workout at e gym. And darn, my right hand still hurts...think I'm getting old le. Injury don't heal that fast these days..eh?

I still miss her and hopes that she has a good week ahead.

My fri thoughts

2009-01-03T18:36:00.003+08:00

We met up again on Friday. Was very happy for her when I knew that she passed her driving test. Well, not bad at all! haha. We had a nice lunch at our fav vegetarian at hg mall, followed by dinner at Turf city. Dinner was okie only as its consists of a platter of fried food. oops. Following, we went to Tea Party for nice tea and scones! That was superb and we had time to talk about us.

She wanted me as a good friend, and wanted to be someone close where we can share our thoughts, feelings, happy and unhappy things in life. I was thinking, even if we can't be together, I will still appreciate her as a good friend as well. She is someone that I would like to care for, take care of. She may appear to be independent and strong to everyone else. But knowing her for e last 2 yrs +, she is not always that way. She is stubborn, and can be harsh when angered. But her heart, is as fragile as everyone else. To me, she is a good woman, who deserves to be well taken care of and loved. She has her loving side and fragile side, if you know her well enough.

I been thinking through if I should just let go, as it might be better for both of us. But after yesterday, I realised that the feelings are there...but just that she cannot see a future together as I don't have the qualities which she wants in a bf. To me, you can always find someone with such qualities, but he /she may lack something which you may find impt later in life or what you find important now may change. So there is really no end to it. But this is just my thoughts. So I shouldn't impose it on others. Eventually, we both agreed on one thing, if we were ever to get together, the perspective must change and only when she can accept me and see me in a different light, we will slowly but surely get our happiness as a couple. This is a tough obstacle, but my firm belief is that if the love is there and given time, we might just be able to get past it.

So right now, I feel that giving each other time is the best choice. We still love each other but we must get past this stage and I truly believe that we will definitely love each other more and be happier if we can overcome our current problem. I have faith in her that she will be able to sort out her thoughts in time. For now, I'm just happy to have her company. Even if the result is not as expected, she will still be my very special and treasured friend.

Happy New Yr 2009?

2009-01-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

Happy New year everyone! haha...i just got back from my date. yea...met up with her and had japanese food for dinner at Bukit Timah. Food is pretty decent wor. As usual, enjoyed sharing with her the food cos can get to try out more variety. And we went for dessert at cartel subsequently..haha..dessert is a must for ms tham jiat! Nearing 11pm, she was damn tired already...so upon her request, I decided to send her home, abandoning the countdown plan.

Hmm, prior to meeting her, I was actually having mixed feelings as I didn expect a meet-up today yea. And to be frank I was abit nervous after seeing her. But after today, I'm just glad we met up. Could sensed that she was alittle moody and something is bothering her. Maybe I'm too sensitive ba. But I shall not think too much or read too much into things for now. Just enjoy the moment and see how things go. Wouldn't want to put additional pressure on myself or her, so the best thing to do now would be to let nature takes its course. Nitess

Drinking Session at Red dot!

2008-12-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

Omg, I banned myself from drinking last week and well as my title suggests, I'm back to it. Damn. Met up with the my nhss brothers today. We had dinner at tanglin mall followed by a drink at red dot(dempsey). 5 of us shared a tower of beer. haha and this is my 1st time drinking from a tower. I know I sound very sua ku...but well its really my 1st time. Lol. For this bunch of brothers, I haven seen some of them for years..and its great to catch up with them.

It was a cheerful session and I'm in a lighter mood today though she is still on my mind. I need to grow stronger. Tough times don't last, Tough men do and I will try harder. Nites

"heart Attack"

2008-12-28T11:46:00.004+08:00

I woke up with bits and pieces of the final moments. I could feel my heart being pierced real hard, ya know. That feeling is horrible. So far, this is the worst morning ever. I don't want to start off my every morning like this, its dreadful and hard. Sigh. I feel so down.

Mixed Feelings on my sat night

2008-12-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hmm, I just came home from a dinner meet up with chu and yc. We met at great world city and had our dinner at asian kitchen. Dinner was not bad and we went to Tcc to carry on our catching up after dinner. Thats when everything started i guess. We were talking about overseas trip, places we went to and also plans for next year. Well, Australia and Taiwan were mentioned and memories from back then suddenly flooded my thoughts. Argh...I had a good friday night, not thinking of anything but yet it just comes back as and when. These days, mornings are the worst for me. I would just wake up with random thoughts and memories.

Well, I know I shouldn't dwell on it le. She has decided to move on and so should I. This is afterall the best for both of us. Guess my heart seems to have a mind of its own and will wander off no matter how hard I try to control. This feeling sucks and it is torturing me with every passing day. Sometimes, I feel that I'm so weak. I want to have the strength to move on. I will carry on trying and hopefully it will get better.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T19:36:00.002+08:00

Dear Friends, Hereby wish you all A Merry Christmas and sincerely hope that you enjoyed yrself.

My Christmas eve was spent at Andy's Dinner function at Marina Mandarin and the buffet spread was fantastic. Haha. Managed to tham jiat quite abit despite what i have eaten at home. Earlier, my Dad suggested ordering Pizza and having dinner together. Guess he was pretty concerned and worried about me as I told him about my updated status. Didn't want to worry him but there is no way i can keep it from him for long. Haha. Subsequently, I met up with yishu, yao zong and Junli at Bukit Merah Mac. haha...what a place to countdown to christmas right? We had a long chat and by the time everything ended, it was already 3am. I'm really blessed to have such friends. Cheers to our friendship.

On Christmas day, I met up with another group of friends from my PA camp previously. And its been long since we all met. Had a good chat with them and lunch + dessert at holland V. Seems that this Chirstmas is really quite meaningful, with all the catching up and stuff.

Right now, I'm abit better...other than the random memories and thoughts that come into my mind. I will try to stop thinking about the past. The wonderful memories I will store it up somewhere in my heart, so that many years down the road, I can still retrieve it and tell myself that I'm glad to have done all these things with you. For now, lets try to move on.

Song that best describe my feelings

2008-12-24T11:27:00.002+08:00

你最近不说话怎麽了为什麽是不是有什麽事让你不快乐

听说你最近很孤单有点乱有点慌可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合也不想认输好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束

不想再约束不要再痛苦下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合也不想认输好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束

不想再约束不要再痛苦下一次会有更好的情路这一次我们都能很幸福

The 1st Morning

2008-12-22T10:03:00.002+08:00

I finally managed to sleep through e night soundly...thanks to my late night supper yesterday. Had a jug of carlsberg with Yishu at Wala Wala yesterday and we had a good man to man talk session. After e session, we went on to West Coast Mac for supper. Haha...damn fattening leh! It was good distraction for the night and i'm taking the time to catch up with old friends, something which I missed out for sometime.

My life was practically revolving around one person back then, for due to my job nature I was afraid that I wasn't spending enough time. Hence, I would make it a point to spend more time, to love and care for her.

When I woke up this morning, the feeling I got is rather different compared to the previous days. Earlier, I was kept hanging there, not knowing how things will turn out. Yet I was helpless for I wasn't able to meet her to talk things out. The total cut off of contact really sux and it almost drove me crazy at certain point of time. I wanted to try hard to fight hard, to regain a chance, even if its just 1% possibility. For I felt it would be my biggest regret if I gave up just like that. Yet I was afraid that everything will be in vain. In the end, well with a true blue commando spirit, I just went ahead with every possible effort to salvage.

To her : Though I failed, at least I have done what I can..I guess. I've been thinking what else could I have done...and prob the answer is that its all too late, I should have known better. I know I am a lot less than perfect, and probably not someone you can look up to and respect with my prevailing flaws. But with all honesty, I tried. Maybe it seems that there wasn't any effort put it....but really it wasn't easy. I know that the disappointment you had to deal with was equally bad and that you had tried to deal with it too. But guess it was just too hard for you and you are just exhausted. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you happiness as we move on and I never regretted loving you.

Right now, I just feel a sense of loss and sadness, and its still not easy getting her out of my head. I woke up, thinking how is she feeling and how her day would be. I know its foolish but its only human. I bleed when I get a cut and now my heart is bleeding slowly but surely. I dunno how long this will go on and maybe when the day it no longer hurts that much, we can have a good talk and laugh it off, as friends.

Okie, time for work. It is a fresh new week. Good week to all of my friends!

Its over. Officially

2008-12-21T19:58:00.002+08:00

Well, My relationship of 2yrs + has officially come to an end. A friend reminded me that sometimes we will feel better when we talk about it or write about it. I guess I will start off with writing. Everything ended too abruptly, so guess i am still in a state of shock and sad right now. Probably the word to use is shattered.

There is a saying that you will never marry the woman you love most. I used to ponder if that statement is true. Now i can probably say that there is some truth in it. Prior to this incident, i had plans, visions in mind for the both of us, for i have already ascertain that she would be someone i want to love wholeheartedly now and forever. But i guess relationships are fragile, and that one can never assume too much.

To be honest, the scary part about every night now is the silence and darkness that made me think about random things, from the past..happy stuff and then now that all these are history. My heart feels so weak now, and every night is a sleepless night. I tried to sleep but somehow i will wake up just barely after i fall asleep. I tried drinking but i just get more depressed as my heart doesn't seem to get drunk. I wish I can numb myself for now..at least it wouldn't hurt as much. Its never easy, I guess.

If you are reading this, i just want to tell you that i don't blame you at all. Maybe we are just not meant to be. But i had wonderful memories with you and thank you for that. I will try to move on with my life as my blog title suggests. I know its not easy on you either, so jiayou as well yea. Time will heal, i believe.

To my buddies and friends, thank you for being by my side when I needed support the most. That will be all for today. Got to go for a supper cum drinking session later. Dun worry, its just light drinking. Haha.

Post of March

2007-03-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

I know..its been a long time since i updated the blog and i guess probably u all think this blog is collecting dust..haha. For myself, things have been normal and now is about one month away from final exams...argh. Thinking back, i realised i haven seen many of my friends for quite sometime..other than junjie and weishiong on a few occasions. I guess we are all preoccupied with our current state of life and meeting up just get harder? Hmm anw, YC birthday is coming. So i shall wish him a happy 24th Bday in adv and gosh..we are old. hah. For my other friends, take care and we will catch up soon. For BeBe, i am still blessed! ciaoz

Some nice photos i love

2007-01-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

A brand new year

2007-01-03T18:34:00.000+08:00

Alrite, yet another year has passed. Somehow, i just got numbed of the passing years...haha. Or maybe its time to look at this differently? Well at least the arrival of 2007 has some significance for me. For the 1st half of the year, my study pals will be having their SEP in europe, leaving the few of us in this coming semester. New challenges at work and directions have been set and sch wise, i must defn do something and improve on the current grades. Results this sem is seriously disappointing...esp when i get worse than ave results for a module which i put extra effort in. Not saying that i should get very good grades..but feel i deserve better. But well saying that doesn't change anything. Just have to make sure this sem is a better sem! On a side note, the holidays were great, or at least better than e last 2 and a half years. Managed to spend some quality time with my dear ones, took abit of roller coaster ride and took a breather from my hectic schedule. And officially tml, i shall get back to my normal regime of work and put everything in place b4 sch starts on the 8th. Time to wake up from my "dream" and put in the energy needed to start the brand new year!

Back!

2006-12-06T11:12:00.000+08:00

Exams over at last. And i am back with abit of blogging. Today also marks my official day back to work..hah. To think of it, this holiday actually quite short..about 1 month. But well, this will be my last 2nd dec holiday b4 i grad. For now, just relieved that exams are over. It was a darn stressful period..esp this sem. Cos i guess i spent alot of time on projects leaving only the last few weeks for my revision. Moving forward, plans for the month would be...work till xmas eve. Await for dearie to come back. Then spend a short few days in KL with her. And here comes then next sem..haha. Splendid!

REST

2006-10-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

Approaching end of the year again and end of the sem as well. Shall make the blog rest till dec. Be right back. Ciaoz

Quote for the day

2006-10-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

Just back after my long and hectic thursday. Had a nice dinner and chat heh. Have taken back some quotes from e guest speaker at the morning session at suntec.

To swallow a fire,
focus not on how big the fire,
think about the steps to doing it.

Know what you want,
know the price to exchange for them
Pay them

Interesting and simple quotes taken back eh. Simple as it sounds..but to be able to always carry out, it might be a different story.

Hectic October

2006-10-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

This month like my title suggest is really packed. Lots of deadlines to meet, be it school or work. Out in the early morning and back late at night...this is how my schedule like these days. Abit low on energy now though. So many things/issues within the same month..My oh my, sure will be a challenge to get them settled. Hazy and humid weather sure makes me more easily irritated these days. Luckily, no one has experience the wraith of my temper. haha. Guess i may need to burn more midnight oil these days...even b4 my exams prep. Time to gear up!

Muddy mud pie!!!

2006-10-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

hah...just finish watching Rob b hood at cine, its a darn nice and funny show..nearly flipped while watching..oh my god...its 107am now...haha. am at the nearby coffee club now..and the service sux. No one to take order from me..argh. nvm shall make full use of the free internet access here..hiak hiak. Someone just had ice cream earlier in the day and now i am forcing her to share a muddy mud pie with me...heh..aww how sinful! Think i gonna have a real nice and deep sleep later on ya. 10hrs of roadshow in a day seems quite tiring these days..hah. sure am getting old.
kk...shall go make my order for the "morning" now. Ciaoz =)

Lunch blogging

2006-09-28T13:15:00.000+08:00

20 more minutes to go b4 i start my next activity. Just had my heavy nasi lemak lunch and grass jelly drink. Heh. Someone must be wondering or rather calculating how much calories that contain liao. haha. That someone just have this weird habit hor! Well, as per normal, after lunch, i am in e mood to nap. So my entry shall be short and sweet.
Currently, i am having my midterm break, with piles of project and catching up to do. And my sat and sun would be burnt at my toa payoh roadshow argh. Well, must say that the break came quite timely, managed to have my retreat and fair share of fun. heh. Alright, i shall make use of my last 10 mins to nap. haha. Shall let pictures do the talking today again. A lazy pig will never change its habit. =p

Zuo bo'ing

2006-09-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm so when you are bored and nothing better to do, the solution is to find something to do as above..haha

@orchard Library

2006-09-20T18:13:00.000+08:00

Well, the price of using free wireless in orchard library is...no msn, no web messenger..hah. no gmail to check. but luckily i still have access to my blog. Prior to this, i have been walking ard and did some moon cake tasting at taka square..haha..now i am feeling abit full from my gluttoness and listening to my gf's mp3 player. Just one more hour to go b4 i meeting irene for dinner. So decided that i shall do abit of blogging. Generally this week seem quite slack..not sure if its due to e coming midterm break haha. Till now, pace of life appears to be moving quite fast this year, with more additions to my life, challenges at work, school. Balancing is sure tricky here.

Anw, forget to congras one of my sec sch friend, weiling..ROM'ing on 16th oct. haha. another reminder that we are getting old. Next coming up will be wanjun's. So mich, when is yours? try not to give me culture shock k? be safe! haha

Think i shall be nice today, wish wanjun get a better job with nicer environment, michelle worklife be smooth sailing, YZ a speedy recovery and able to get back to sports soon. And myself, more luck! hah

Shall end e entry with a photo i just uploaded from hp. heh

Test Day

2006-09-14T09:35:00.000+08:00

ha...as my title suggest its my test day..for this particular module call Heat transfer. Well, woke up in e morning not exactly to revise but just that quite used to waking up early liao. Slept at 2am last night which is consider quite late for my lifestyle recently..hah. For e past 2yrs, think i will tend to sleep like ard 3 to 4am every night and wake up by 10 or 11am next day.(if time permits), if not ppl will just a panda me. Heh, this is a healthy start and change for a new sem eh..thanks to someone. haha. Hmm let me see whats on my schedule for the next few days, back to office on wkend as usual, then dinner with irene's mum on sat, and settling my tutorials for next wk. hah..tats my wkend.

Think my energy has been quite low recently, due to my flu, fever and cough..this time rd, the virus seems quite powerful la...taking longer time to recover than usual. Hope i regain health soon..got so many things on my to do list la...eg..sun tanning, my usual night runs, kayaking(maybe), and my work. Keke, i better go pack up for sch. ciaoz

Me And My Cha Cha gf

2006-09-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

haha..just got back from my short walk with dearie. We had a rather long walk from PS to Clark Quay..haha..oops. It was fun though we were pespiring at e end of e session. heh. Too bad dearie doesn blog..so i guess i will help her display her present for the day..haha. Gosh, i am darn proud of myself can..haha. FYI, my arts and craft is CMI one..so there is a reason to be proud of e wad seems average/normal standard. haha.

Sept 1st post

2006-09-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

Home alas after a long thursday. Hmm, been a rather sickly week..haha. dun get me wrong, i am not ill. My food poisoning saga was over. The patient is my dear gf. Flu, fever, cough...jialat. Well, e only thing is due to my schedule, wasn really able to take care of silly ger..heh. Hope she don't get stress out from sch work,tuition and her reports ya. Oops..think this entry is abit of overdose, but still i want to say take care and get well soon, dearie..heh

Kk, on my side, looking forward to midterm break, will be taking a short break at downtown east from 26th to 27th of the month, mich and wanjun, if u can, join us ya. Will be trying to organise a mini gathering or BBQ. Guess i will end my entry here. A bit stoned to blog now. Ciaoz

Zouk Nite out

2006-08-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

Been quite sometime since i went to Zouk, think maybe about near 3 years? oops. Haha. Maybe i am not really enthu about chionging ba. Anw, went there on sat night for dearie's pageant preview. Fun seeing her on stage(despite someone's claim that she is shy..haha). We left shortly after e performance, as we dun really like clubbing and would prefer somewhere to have some peace and feast after a long day..haha. Went to Cineleisure to rent dvd room to watch Final Destination 3 and surprisingly the show was chosen by some timid gal..heh heh. The night or should i say morning ended with our feast at the hong kong delights at the 2nd floor of cine. Must say that the place is quite nice to dine in...except that the waitresses are abit blur, keep on sending food we never order to our table and making me wait for a whole 30mins for my dumpling soup. hah. Well, overall it was a enjoyable sat night =)

Long and tiring day

2006-08-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

Just got home from a wad seems long day ya. Started my day at 9am...with 3hrs of lesson..followed by lab from 2 to 5pm and the supposed meeting with the prof for our project at 6pm. Guess wad, he didn turn up..hah. By then, i was already weak from my diarrhea from last nite overwhlem intake of sashimi and "fresh" oyster. Lesson learnt? never overdose on raw food just becos its free flow..haha. too late for regrets now. Simply feeling weak from e numerous toilet visits i had today. Shall go take a short nap. No more sashimi for one month!!

Heavy Sunday

2006-08-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Just back from my..erm uncle's wake. Prior to that was at my fren's mum wake. 2 wakes in a day..best! Probably, this is e 5th or 6th wake i been to for this year. Apparently, this few experiences just strengthen the belief that treasure your family while they are around. Like it or not, they are getting older day by day and we will never know how long they will be around us. One's presence can only be felt only after his/her absence and by then everything is too late. Rather heavy stuff for a sunday nite blog. Well, just something to ponder about i guess.

To sidetrack abit, tml is first day of sch..oh man..same old things again. haha. And this wednesday, my buddy, yaozong going for his Ops. Wish him all the best and have a speedy recovery. Alrite, shall stop here. =)

Long long thursday

2006-08-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hah, today is one darn long day with lots of things to do la. But b4 i carry on there..maybe i should blog about my younger bro. hah. I barely managed to fall asleep last nite at 2am, only to wake up at 330am to find my younger bro sitting on my bed watching tv. It was really OMG! Feeling irritated, just called him to shift up to his own bed and e next thing i saw was his foot coming close to my face in my dreamy state...i simply dunno wad to say man. hah..19yr old bro, going to NS. haha.

And so i woke up finally at 630am to change up and make way for Yum Cha for breakfast with xian hong,yan lian and Yijun. haha. Simply sinful la..esp after my chomp chomp last nite. This is one day tat i wake up so early and haha surprisingly i was still able to crap on as per normal =)

After breakfast, we took 2 photos with auto timer and well tat marks the farewell breakfast for Yijun who is flying off to tian jin for a sem. All the best pal!

Next destination, NUS. Met Junli at Kent Ridge who gave me a lift to Science to visit my dear, and subsequently had to leave for my project meeting at 1pm. So the rest of the day goes blah blah blah with my appointments and meeting till 930pm. haha..guess i am too tired to fill in the details. Though tired, but i am still happy to blog about my events these days..conclusion? i am in e mood to blog. Ciaoz

National Day outing

2006-08-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

Back after a day of outing on national day. Simply shag but enjoyable =)
Went East Coast with my "mysterious" gal today and had fun cycling for quite some time. Only drawback was the horrible crowd which simply causes many jams along the way. heh. While waiting for the rest of the gang, we sat down to enjoy e evening breeze and chatted on, with short moments of short peaceful silence. Simply love the moment. haha.

Anw, due to this major public day, we had a hard time looking for places to eat..so in e end we took ard 1hr of search b4 settling down at chomp chomp. We ordered about 15 dishes shared among 7 ppl. Its simply overwhleming la...I and Irene was the 1st 2 to stop eating..haha. There goes her dieting plan Oops. =p

As all good things come to an end, and in my stone mode now, dun think i want to blog anymore. So shall let the pictures do the talking and let the mystery be solved. Nitez.

Updates

2006-08-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

Heh, it has been a long mon. Just got back from my appointment at tampines..darn far can?? Anyway, met up with michelle, wanjun and weishiong at bugis today for dinner. Had a short stoning session at e desert shop after dinner. Unfortunately, e Ah Chew desert which i love to visit is close today..so have to settle for the Ji de Chi(remember to eat) desert shop. Name of shop sure sounds corny. haha. The session was in a way about updating each other about our lives now since e 2 gers have started working and of course most imptly a belated celebration for michelle bday =). Hmmm, so where is my belated celebration ah? hahaa. oops.

Anyway, for new updates about my life? hmm school gonna start..blah blah blah. work as per normal. And well there is an important addition to my sch/work life. heh heh.
Used to think that work and studies would be my only priorities for the 4 yrs in NUS. But i guess life is all about balance. Met someone whom i hope will play a significant part in my life and vice versa =). Someone whom i truly am willing to make adjustments and fit her into my life. Whos tat someone? hahaha. Till next time guys.

Blessed

2006-08-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

Mmm, decided that i should blog a little since i am waiting for my next appt of the day. Wow, its august liao and sch gonna start real soon man. In a way, the year is about to come to an end and i am quite glad with things which i have gone through in e past 8 months..be it pleasant or unpleasant. Somehow, just feel quite happy for e past few days..haha. Reason? hmm maybe its just things that i have encountered ba. For now, just hope that the rest of the year would be a smooth one and may there be a healthy progressive improvement in my life. The word to which best describe my feelings now would be the title of the post. "Blessed" Till i blog again.

Getting Older

2006-07-20T09:52:00.000+08:00

Hur Hur, just woke up as usual with a bad throat and nose. Argh. Hate this kind of feeling haha. Well, officially 23 today and hah..sure feels "older" keke..tat was lame. Not a particular special day in my life cos my routine just as usual. Had initially plan for something but due to last min screw ups and committment, i had to cancel all plans. hah. Hmm let me see whats on my travelling schedule today, 1230 appt, 330 meeting "sis" to pass me e choco she bought, 6pm appt and after that...hmmm maybe have a good filling dinner. hah. Simple plans for a simple day =).

Wishes for the year? hmm, just want this to be a better year la.(not that e previous yr was bad). keke, better go prep and change up. Shall end my entry here. Ciao

Early Wed Morning

2006-07-19T09:41:00.000+08:00

Wad a weird way to start my day. Just woke up, thanks to my boss wake up call. haha. Feeling much better than my last blog. Energy level at 60%? heh. Funny thing is i sort of manage to sort things out yestr which was like..out of a sudden. hah. The way to describe would be a sudden movement from in front of the cinema screen to the middle or end seat where you have a clearer overall view of the movie.
Conclusion after this episode: Life goes on and time stops for no one.

Dot dot dot

2006-07-17T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hah, seriously dunno what i should write actually. Not that there is nothing to write about but just too much. Anw, i am still waiting for my evening appointment.. so might as well dropby my blog and scribble something. Been a boring monday for me, and i slept till 12pm today la...thanks to the one can of garlsberg i drank last night. And thats e one and only can i have in my house since my family doesn drink. Well, in a way i am just not used to doing nothing at all and hence i am truly trying to find things to do today...but to no avail. Hmmm just one more month to start of school..oh man..the holiday gonna be over. Well, i guess its time to gear myself for the challenges ahead again. But right now, i am just too tired.. TIRED of everything...till my next entry

Test time

2006-07-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

sinlong took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feel..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

haha..wow. Inspired by Yaozong's blog when i chanced upon it. so decided to play along. accurate to a certain extent though

Halfway through

2006-06-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

Apparently, i haven been updating my blog. At least this is the 1st entry for the month of june. Been busy trying to load myself with work, and spending more time at my 2nd home(office). Am in fact planning for a short one day break next week, maybe shall go ice skate or go kart. hah. And oh ya...going to participate in a short orientation camp in coming july. Hope its gonna be fun. haha. This holiday sure passes faster than i thought. Soon, next sem coming and i will be in yr 3. 2 more yrs to grad. hah.

Good Morning

2006-05-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

heh heh, just finished my morning run not long ago. Feeling charged up for the day and abit of ache after doing my static PT..But the feeling is great. Shall attempt to keep this up and improve my fitness. Hmmm, what shall i do next? Time to relax a while b4 i start my day of work, i guess. Maybe can catch Xmen 3 tonite. Ciaoz

New Start

2006-05-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Finally,exams and reservist days are over. Must say that i quite enjoy the 10 days in reservist. Not that it is not that is shag, but rather i find myself in a different time zone like the good old days. Life after army is so so fast till i hardly have time to slow down. So the 10 days break came in time, for me to slow down and start thinking through issues. Sidetrack abit, there seem to be a sudden craze of playing the game bridge in camp, ppl ard me(including me) staying up till late at night to play that game..ha

Results are out earlier than previous sem. Didn do too well. Cap drop by 0.02..sigh. Maybe can only say i deserve it. And well guess wad, i got a C+ for my design module..the one i wrote a complain letter on. WTH. Can't seem to be able to stay away from Cs in the last 3 sems...sux big time. Seriously, i can't seem to recall the times where i am very happy and excited about life. That was the question that went through my mind during the 10 days in camp.

As of now, work is fine, though i am abit rusty at it since i haven been working since exams. Studies neither here nor there, social life just normal. Seems rather monotone huh? So what is it that i really really want out of the next 2 yrs? Maybe lets just take a look in a smaller detail. For the next 3 months till sch start, i want some progress at work, more personal time(unlike last yr) and regain my past fitness!!

Well , having said that, i think i should start on the fitness part 1st. Shall go to sleep soon and wake up early for my morning workout tml. Nite ppl.

Over

2006-05-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Well, exams over and some aspect of my life as well, i am back. Let me see...reservist is coming up in a few days time and i will be gone from 16th to 26th of May....that final day is also the day of release of results. How wonderful right? Suddenly feel quite lost now. Things are moving on and well i had better i guess. Have to get into the mood for the right things soon. Things to look forward to: meeting up with old friends, going for a short holiday(if possible) and start of next sem...hah.

Time Break

2006-03-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, its a humid mon morning and in my half awake state, i am writing my 1st entry for the month. Yeap, its true tat it has been long since i blogged. Guess there was too much things to clear and do and even till now i am trying to catch up on sch work which i had previously laggin. Anyway, i guess this might be the last entry before i blog again in may( haa..after exams). So far, work aspect, think i am doing fine. Sch wise, am trying desperately to catch up. Personal life wise, nothing much or rather not in a really right mood to think about it now. Stress is really building up ya. Sometimes, i really wonder, wads coming next? shud really think hard about it after this exams. NOT getting any younger liao(as a student). To my fellow school mates and frens graduating, jia you for your exams ya. Sorry if i MIA for quite some time. Seriously quite tied down with work and stuff. Catch up with u all in May and June. Ciaoz.

Haha..my 1st email to professor in NUS

2006-02-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

Dear Prof,

I am Sinlong, one of the students in your lecture group. After taking the test today, I seriously think that I have to write this email to you. Firstly, I appreciate your effort in preparing and setting the test for us despite your hectic schedule. However, after taking the test, I noticed that there was quite a chaotic situation when everyone was queuing to submit their paper. Alot of students were openly discussing and comparing their answers and worse of all, change their answers. This situation lasted for about a whole ten minutes and I am quite perturbed by it. Apparently, the students have betrayed your trust in their integrity and resorted to cheating.

This act is something which i am rather upset with. I am upset that the NUS students can resort to this act of cheating and doing it in front of the invigilators, which i feel is clearly a sign of disrespect. I have also noticed that the invigilators have taken actions to confiscate the matric cards of those who cheated. But as you have mentioned in the announcement, there is a lack in man power and I appreciate that you and the invigilators have taken action to prevent cheating. However, isn't it true that for 3 invigilators to catch the people who cheated among the 300 plus students is rather hard? And hence it cannot be ruled out that many culprits would be left unnoticed? Secondly, the 10 minutes time lag in the above action to prevent cheating would have allowed many students to make the "necessary" changes. So in short, I feel that this cheating incident is unfair to both you and the students who heeded your instructions to stop writing.

I understand that you have also changed the weightage to 40%, and I sincerely appreciate that. However, 40% is still a large portion of the final grades and I am not sure if alot of people will be affected by the "unfairness" of the test, be it positively or negatively. I must re emphasize that I am not writing this email to direct the blame at anyone. I am sure that you are trying to be as fair as possible in this complicated situation, and it’s always hard to determine what is fair in this case. Hence, I sincerely hope that further actions can be taken now to:

1) Reassure students who trusted and listen to your instructions faithfully.
2) Safeguard the reputation of the involved parties so that in future, such incidents will not occur.

Regards
Sinlong

A quiet Fri Nite

2006-01-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

In the midst of the silence i am having on this FRI nite, i am trying to drown the silence with my mp3s but seems that it isn working. Which is why i am starting to blog hah. Somehow, this sem is getting more hectic..or rather i have gotten myself involved in more things than ever...be it personal or work. haha. Not saying its not a good thing, as i always think that it will be good to outdo myself with time. Just that i am walking on a thin thread this sem and hence i better have the discipline to manage my time properly. This time, there is really not much room for slacking compared to e 1st 3 sems. kk..ppl..i know u all must be thinking y i say 1st 3 sems slack. Actually..its not but just tat i could still find time to waste and study inefficiently back then and this means to say there is much more to improve on my time management. So objective for this sem is to cut down on my time wastage =)

In the recent one month, also had my fair share of fun, like meeting new ppl, old sec sch classmates and i am sure glad that the dec holidays was fully made use of..heh. And oh ya..i finally got my 1st try on go Karting. Went to JB on Mon with my colleagues and try out go karting at a cheap rate of 30rm compared to the $30 in sg..haha. And of course not to forget, we had a filling and superb dinner b4 we left...total cost 209rm =)
After all my expenditure for the past one month...i think its time to cut down le..hah..going broke soon at the rate i am spending. Well..guess its time to rest, still have to be back in office at 930am tml. Finally getting used to this routine of work and sch after 8 months..heh.

Bo liao in sch

2006-01-11T09:32:00.000+08:00

Your brain: 80% interpersonal, 80% visual, 100% verbal, and 140% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 48% on interpersonal

You scored higher than 30% on visual

You scored higher than 66% on verbal

You scored higher than 59% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

haha...really bored in sch and darn pissed off with the screwed up wireless network in nus. sigh. The weather is really making me feel sleepy =)

Class Gathering

2006-01-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

Wei, lao mich..dun say i never update my blog hor. Well its e 1st post of the new yr and i guess it is also one of the days i am feeling more light hearted. heh. Not to say that my dec 05 was bad but just tat the last few weeks have been quite shag ya..everyday reaching home only to concuss. hah.

To start off, i just had a secondary class gathering today, which was organised 3 days ago. Must say that i was quite surprised and impressed by the turn up rate. We have about 23 people turning up today. We feasted on KFC chickens, wu xiang and bee hoon plus some ice cream. Am sure glad to be present today. To think back, e last gathering was 5 yrs ago at a pasir ris chalet. Well, time flies..and we are all getting old. Oh ya, congras to wanjun who will be having her ROM soon..heh. Also special thanks to MIchelle for revealing this secret..haha. Lastly, thanks to Weishiong and huiling for helping to organise this event...and i am definitely guilty of flying their aeroplane for some personal reason. sorry.

Oh ya..there goes my holiday, dec 05 is over. Now is 2006 and i guess its time to make a new resolution. What i want should be quite simple,
1.Pull up my CAP score to 3.5 and above this sem.
2.Make progress at work and hit my promotion criteria
3.Spend more time with my family
4.Catch up with friends whom i haven seen for ages
5.Have a short retreat somewhere with my hp off..where my boss wun be able to find me..haha..oops

Tats all folks!

2nd post of dec

2005-12-21T02:01:00.000+08:00

Oops...seems that i have not updated this blog for quite sometime. Time now..2am..hah. By right i should be sleeping le, still have to work tml. But well, decided to blog a little. It was a long day from morning till now. But shall not describe all..too lazy to write haha. Anyway, met up with catherine, angelene and Weishiong today at bugis..my workplace..how convenient for me rite? We had a family feast at KFC and wah..it was darn filling la. After tat, we went in search for a comfortable place to nua. Eventually, after 20mins of searching, we found a desert shop which has nice sofa and air-con..heh. We started off with a few poker tricks performed by e young lad manning e counter and after which Mr tang took over ha. Bridge took over next and we played e game till 1130pm ya..hah. Got a shock when i received a call from angelene who told me that she and cath were nearly robbed. At that moment, i was like..i shud have send them off and waited for their cab to arrive. Well, its a lesson learnt. Apologies to e 2 ladies.
By e time i packed up my stuff and was ready to leave, it was already 12..oops. And well, e cab cost me 18 bucks which i think is still alrite ba.(once in a while, if not will really be broke soon). Kk..think i had a long entry as well as a long day..tml is yet another packed day for me. hah. Time for bed.

BACK

2005-12-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

Well, exams over and holiday is here again. This dec gonna pass real fast i guess..its already the 7th today..oh man..haha. Once again, i am back to work and will only be taking a break from christmas eve to 26th. Anyways, results coming out on the 22nd...really "exciting" huh. Not sure how i would perform but think shud be better than last sem..heh. Kk..shall keep this short, rather tired out after a day at work. GOtta go catch my sleep b4 my next working day begins. Ciaoz

4 more days

2005-11-15T03:30:00.000+08:00

Yeap, 4 more days to my 1st paper. Darn fast la. Nose am currently running away and throat feeling irritated thanks to my fries feast this afternoon. haha. Now super behind time le...but well i guess we can never finish studying everything. Shall go rest and carry on working hard tml. Will be back after exams.

The Ultimate!!

2005-11-11T16:47:00.001+08:00

Argh, 7 more days to exams. So wads wrong with that...Well nothing is wrong. Just that problems just like to come visit me when i want to focus on exams prep. Due to some sensitive issue, shall not go into details. In summary, i might lose one client becos of some minor screwup by me. Though not entirely my fault, but just can't help but feel frustrated at how this can happen at a crucial time!! Piece of S**t. K, shall go have my lunch/dinner now. Frustrated, hungry, tired. What else is coming next? Come what may, thou objective shall not be Swayed!

FLUIDS NITE

2005-11-10T03:12:00.000+08:00

Haha..shag shag!! Just finish 2hrs straight of Fluids of mechanics reading...Well for ppl who took physics in JC...hope u still can remember the infamous fluids of mechanics..heh. Basically, this module is driving me nuts la. But one thing glad is..i manage to sort out a few concepts which traumatised me in the past..surprisingly. Basically seeing stars now, think its time to go Kunz. Still have tonnes of unfinished revision and only 8 days left. OMG!!

Month of the Exams

2005-11-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

Oops, seems that i haven blog for quite sometime le hor..YC, MICH. Been trying to mug ma..exams in 11 days time la. Shag!!! Dun even know if i can finish in time. Anyway, recently also nothing much to update..life have been revolving ard sch and home most of the time. hah. Oh, something new would be i have the habit of buying cakes of diff flavours ( bitter choco, newyork cheese, mango, tiramisu ) everytime i passby cafe cartel...keke. Sure is a good way of getting fat..hah. Anyway, decided to take up the trial membership at california gym in dec and will definitely have a good workout for a month b4 taking my ippt. K, have to go back to my thermo. Ciaoz

2005-10-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: July 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading.
The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Simply bored

2005-10-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Heh, wad a way to spend my weekend, attempts at tuts for e sat afternoon n sunday. Gaming from 12am to 8am with my little bro on a sat nite. Oops, wad a way to waste my time away haha. And oh ya, just receive my gek class photo by compliments of irene. By the way, think this is the 1st class photo taken since i entered NUS hahaa.

Supper Nite

2005-10-28T02:02:00.000+08:00

Had a real long supper near my place with my tuition centre colleagues and boss..haha. Though only just got to know them, but was already crapping with them for like 4 long hrs la. Guess tats the power of the crappers combined heh. In any case, they are all some yrs my senior but well guess we still belong to e same league, so still able to click and gossip a little(with the ladies). Hmmm, this kind of life also not too bad sia, but cannot always supper away my time like this...due to the incoming exams. Shall go catch some sleep now. Ciaoz

Reflections

2005-10-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

Haha, supposed to be going to bed now. Guess i shall blog a little b4 i go and concuss ba. These days, everyone to be preoccupied with their own activities(including me) and well all i can say is things have sure changed alot ever since i turned 18. hah, not that its not good but guess its just another phase of life ba. Gone were the days where friends will hang out in clicks after sch or during weekends, gone were the days where i can go for a game of basketball or gym workout after sch, and go were the days where i can be worry free(other than study results). Instead, life now is more about whats next? Money enough? What are the things i should start doing to prepare for the future when i grad?

I guess things these days are not really that straight forward anymore, its not about right or wrong, should or shouldn. Afterall, its about WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE HAPPENING! Though this issue has been bothering me for sometime, i have not really given proper thought and actions into it. For now, priority would be on studies and saving up an amt equivalent to my uni sch fees so that my dad would be financially stress free ba. It may seem very no life to just revolve ard work and studies, but i guess when it comes to priorities, some of the things that will bring you away from your objective has got to go. I can't have everything or can i? Just have to make sure i don't sway away from my objective.

One thing i am glad is that i am not alone afterall. Have Yao Zong in ME with me and pals like xianhong to mug together, ah lian to make fun of, and my NTU/outside frens to catch up with once in a blue moon. Feel that true friendships are hard to comeby, and even harder to maintain. ALways believe that it takes 2 hands to clap, so friendship is not only about ME...its about U and I. Kk, about time to kunz, otherwise tml gek test confirm shag.

Mon Blues

2005-10-25T01:48:00.000+08:00

Heh, by right i should be mugging hard for my term test on wed. But guess i shall take a break and blog for a while ba. Really feel that time is running short recently with the piles of work to be done in the next 2 days....2 tests and a lab report to prep, all due by wed. Anyway, think this is the time to test my limits ya..though i seem to be falling sick. Even so, think i just managed to finish a tube of choco yestr and half a tube of potato chips today..heh..oh my.
Really look forward to end of wed man, that wud mark e end of my tests temporary and also means i get to enjoy my free movie "just like heaven" from M1. hah. Hopefully i will be able to tahan through these 2 grilling days..haha..till then (=

Down at e wrong time!!

2005-10-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

Just 3/4 done with my tut for tml, feeling darn tired now le..guess i should go do something light instead..like reading my interpersonal comms book later haha. Actually wanted to mug the whole day but well e flu virus got e better of me and i was forced to go home after my lec. Took a short nap and started doing my tut from 9pm till now. ONly did a miserable 5 qns...sigh. Well, still have lots to catch up on. Time to go sort them out now.

Yet another day!

2005-10-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

Finally done with my Tupid lab report. Seeing alot of stars now man, took me a good four hours to finish up with that report. Someone...help!!
Anyways,was happily msn'ing and doing report at the same time, otherwise wud be bored to death by now. Hah, am still comtemplating whether i should read up on my thermo later...hmm shall think about it while i go shower. Need to clear my head of the stars ya. Lab Sux!! Well well, yet another short entry depicting how tired i am haha.

On the other hand, realised that i have really lost the drive to pia for things i wanna do for e past few years....gone were those days..until recently, have e urge and the motivation. Guess its about the desire u have in things u do ba. Just wish i can maintain this momentum and carry it to a higher level. Am desperately in need of it since time is not on my side. Kk, shall make use of time wisely, time to shower and mug. Tata!

Knock Out

2005-10-17T02:26:00.000+08:00

kaka...as my title suggest..i am already seeing stars. The best part is i spend one weekend and only managed to clear one tutorial on my fluids of mechanics. Argh. Still have lots of lagging stuff to clear sia. This is gonna be a darn stressful week. Tml nite still have to settle work stuff, tues night last tuition lesson with my kids..thankfully. Weds and Thurs left to mug hopefully. I really hope i can get into the mugging mode man..otherwise gonna suck big time. Think i seeing double vision le...signal to stop and go and kunz. Nitez!!

2005-10-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

Mugging

2005-10-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

Shag shag, 4 qns in 3hrs...oh man..i really sux. Finally decided to start muggin today but only to realise that i wasted lots of time trying to solve the problems. Stress level building up, feel like sleeping...hah. In any case, think i will try to go back to solve a few more qns b4 i concuss..heh. Not a very enjoyable weekend for lim pei.

MidNite Run!!

2005-10-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

Eh..feeling abit shag after my 3K+ run with my army buddy man..hah. Due to my laziness over e past 3 weeks, i have not been running..so today decided to make it a pt to start on tat. I would also think that this marks the start of my mugging period le. One more month to exams and i am like darn lost la. In any case, think its time i should gear my mindset towards exams prep. One more hr for mugging and i shall go concuss. Gambate to my frens who are mugging!!

Marathon over!!

2005-10-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Phew, got back from my make up tuition with the kids..now feeling drained out...(not from tuition) but from my 3 days of dvd marathon..haha. Think i am really into drama serials. Back in my army days, i would just buy sets after sets of vcds to watch in camp and sometimes sacrifice my precious sleep just to complete the marathon in a few days. Those were the days ya. Unfortunately, a particular drama serial caught my attention recently..Legend of the condor heroes 2003 production...heh. Bought the dvds and finished it after sacrificing lots of sleep.
I must say that though the story is nothing new but the chemistry betw the lead actor and actress is good enough to make me want to watch the series. To think that i can be that crazy all over again.
Anyway, feeling darn shag and guilty right now. THink i shall try to go mug a little and sleep early tonite. heh

End of the week

2005-10-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

Phew, just had a long day of travelling for today. Must admit travelling isn fun aT all hah. Anyway, was looking at Yaozong's Blog..Wads up with his "tests" recently. haha... feeling abit bo liao, so nim bei decided to go play ard with his latest test hah. Kns..all e questions ask me all about animals, ma chiam i animal king like tat..
Now feeling darn sleepy le, oops..think its time for bed. Sunday is not exactly to rest day for me ya..got tonnes of work waiting for me...

2005-10-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Home late

2005-10-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, where should i start with ? Oh..just finished my dinner at 1am..hah. wad an early dinner rite! Was staying in office to settle my case just now. The whole report took me like a whole 2 hours lo. BUt well, i was willing to write that report though haha..Finally, some results from my 2 days of roadshow. Guess i was quite lucky. Anyway, now is time for mugging again. Hope i can sleep by 2am ba. heh

Sunday nite

2005-10-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching some animes i downloaded and about to go on to doing my tutorial le. Had a day of roadshow at lot one and i must say this loud, the crowd there really hard to deal with..haha. or rather i am just being nua? Anyway, this coming week would be my last week of work le..hopefully. Met up with one of my friend today as well, and she was telling me about how her perspective changed after her overseas exchange and encouraged me to go for one as well.
I was thinking about it as well but i guess its not on my priority list now though its like once in a lifetime thing in the sense tat u will feel diff when u go on tour later on in life vs on an exchange. For now, i just wish to settle my financial situation as well as my studies. Meanwhile, think i really need to find time to sit down and think about wads next for the next few years. Time to really understand myself. haha.

Simply Tired!!

2005-09-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

Just got home from office, brain not really thinking properly...just feel so so darn tired out from everything. High output and low input this month man..sux big time

In the mood for blog/ half time break

2005-09-27T02:19:00.000+08:00

Ha, cannot believe it that i finally got down to studying today and somemore into e wee hours. Am taking a self declared 5 mins break and decided to blog today after reading yaozong's.
Just realised that i have only 2 and a half more years to grad. To me, it doesn seem a long time. Afterall, my 2 and a half years of NS life was over b4 i know it. But what is gonna be diff wud be there is no longer a planned path for me...this time round its all about choices and more choices. Well, life after 20 sure passes fast. In fact, the sight of my dad and mum greying hair made me realised that i am really getting old..as in old enough to start thinking seriously about my options and definitely more importantly to put them into actions. Alrite, 5 mins is up. Time to go back to work.

Home

2005-09-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

Heh, finally a saturday spent at home. Didn do much today, just manage to do some qns on my tuts. Think i am really slacking away my time today...Oops. Happen to hear a piece of interesting/disturbing news from my mum. It turn out that her young colleague whom she referred to me were gossiping behind my back as well as my mum. Making out stories that i have been persistently sending sms to ask her to close her case.
Oh man, guess wad, think e last time i sms her was like one and a half months ago and those sms were just greetings forwarded. In the first place, i wasn the one who initiated the whole thingy. 2ndly, i send her sms cos i treated her as a friend but well seems that she doesn feel that way, oh well.

Verdict?

I guess my line of work is rather sensitive ba. Any friendly gesture could be mistaken for ulterior motives/agendas. In fact, i am abit pissed + amused..haha. Well, guess i will take it as a lesson learnt. Now left with 3 more questions for my tut, guess i shall go attempt them soon.
OH ya, just discovered that cityspeed "automatically" renewed my membership with them...for a darn 100 bucks when i am already so broke this month! These days, all my friends seem quite preoccupied with their stuff. I guess my belief that friends see each other less as they aged holds. haha.
Ps: this seems to be one of my longest posting as of now..hah..being bo liao.

Union Square

2005-09-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

Just came back from my salsa dance at union square, the people really do dance well..at least better than beginners like me..hah. Right now, am feeling super relaxed though i know i still have tutorials to clear. Must admit that this salsa dancing has really add on to the fun element in my life. Got to know some new n nice frens as well..heh. I sure look forward to new changes in my life. Cheers.

2005-09-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

Just finished supper with ws, jj and mich. Well e crowd these days is sure getting smaller, but nevertheless we ate quite abit. haha. Just realised that mich still as harebrained as ever, no offence but think tats good. still e same old mich. Anyway, wish mich bon voyage and may her probs be resolved soon =). Argh tml still have 930 morning meeting in office..sux big time man. Back to work again after my short break. Am glad i managed to catch up with some of my frens this week, though not all. Alrite, time to Zzz liao, otherwise tml gonna be super shag.

2005-09-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Been taking a break from work since last mon, well it sure feels good. All e slacking n nuaing haha. Somehow this feeling is good. For once, i am leaving aside work problems and getting back to my studies and friends. Though its a short break, but its good enough for now. As a matter of fact, i am doing burning midnite oil doing my fluids of mechanics tut. Sux big time. Anyway, back to tut!

2005-08-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

Phew just got home, dunno whether this is good news or bad..hah. Should be at tampines at this time but something "crop up" as per expected. 2 straight days of such incidents. But i really need a short break le..been wasting alot of unnecesary travelling this 2 weeks. Somehow, energy level seems low recently. 7 more days to e finale, after tat i shall take a 2 days break..catch up with my friends, sleep till shiok and mug. For now, i must really tell myself to hang in there and make it happen...haha.. My dear frens who are reading, will definitely catch up with u in due time..forgive my disappearance for quite sometime. Nitez

2005-08-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

Just woke up from my nap and recovered from my flu. Surprisingly, i feel good. Not becos of e nap but just feel revitalised and clear in the head. Haven felt like this for a long time le. Perhaps my brain has been sleeping for a long time ba. Anyway, think its time to sort out my priorities and keep myself focused. Life is never a breeze i guess. Time for tuition again. ( my fridays are sold to my tuition kids).

2005-08-06T00:42:00.000+08:00

About time to go to bed liao. Have been sleeping at an earlier time due to long hrs of work. Anyway, nothing new in my life recently...just e same old things again. Feel darn no life. Well, i guess i cannot have everything. May my "life" come back soon. Cheers

2005-08-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

Supper time. Just finished supper walk my way home from jurong pt. Its about 30 mins walk home ba. Well, today is a relax day for me. Had my salsa class and was quite lost in some dance steps haha. I think my dear frens wud never expect me to take up salsa ba..I can imagine their shocked expression when they know..heh.

Hmmm, sch gonna start soon and well i am having mixed feelings. Not really excited about sch but wud think that getting back to sch would be good. At least i am moving on as my blog title indicate. Alrite man, back to msn chat. Cheers

2005-08-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Just finished my supper with my colleagues, well they are rather supportive and telling me to jiayou. So are my frens. But i guess i can't help but be disappointed by the miserable 3 appts i managed to fix over the weekend. Logically, i should be working harder to get my appts n not feel down. But i guess e heart n e brain just dun always sing the same tune ba. As of now, i am trying not to let e heart do e thinking. Anyway, tml is back to office for my weekly meeting again..thanx goodness, next week gonna start sch. Sure hope things will get better.

2005-07-31T17:10:00.001+08:00

Belated birthday celebration